Are you having troubles?

“Anyone who is having troubles should pray.” James 5:13

Have you taken your disappointments to God? You’ve shared them with your neighbor, your relatives, your friends. But have you taken them to God?

Before you go anywhere else with your disappointments, go to God.

I can get overwhelmed with the problems in my life, can't we all? And I have found that I have been so quick these last few months to run and talk to friends & my parents, my boyfriend about whats going wrong and how I feel like God has forgotten me. But as I took a step back tonight & realized that through all of these problems or disappointments I have been going through... I haven't taken them to God.

I keep thinking in my head Why this.. or Why that... and Maybe it's because I have not taken my pain & disappointments to God.

Today and from now on... I am making a promise, if only to myself, that I will go to God before I go to everyone else. God knew me before I was born, and knew what would happen in my life, the pain and happiness I would and will experience. He waits for me with open arms.

Etsy Page =]

I have been visiting SO many new sites & blogs & etsy shops!! I found a shop today that I really like! She makes the cutest little toys for kiddos, and I found a Green & Pink Pinafore that I REALLY want to but when I have a little girl!!

The photo of the dress is too big, but here is a link to the dress!! you need to check her out & al her cute things. I also love the little owls.. they say.. Owl Love you Forever!!!!

http://www.etsy.com/listing/57459187/pink-and-green-owl-pinafore-3-6-months

(thats the link)

Have fun =]

I am trying to figure out how this all works but now I have added my own signature!!! yay =]

ohh baby... I think I wanna marry you

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.

- Elizabeth Barrett Browning

I sometimes do not even know how i managed to get a man like Jon Mullins. I have looked back on my life a lot this last year and a half and thought about all the things i have gone through in this short 24 years of life. Lets go back a few years... I never had a guy in my life until i was 20, it might have been 19. I remember praying so much for a man that God wanted me to have, someone who would complement me in every way. Some girls make a list of all the things they want... and man.. did i make a list. It is so funny how God's since of humor works. He has filled everything I wanted in Jon. Let me share with you some of the things that were on my list...I wanted to find a man that i could be in church with & worship with, I wanted to love going to church with someone and just stand there singing & feel like we are worshiping together. I wanted someone who i felt was like me in aspect that people or our friends would feel comfortable coming to just to talk or to open up about something going on in their life. I wanted a man that could be a strong leader- while I am a strong leader myself i wanted a man that i didn't feel like i had to step back or take the back seat while they lead. (Jon will be the head of our home, but we make choices together & he is so considerate of how i feel.) ... i won't continue with all the things that are on my list... =]

I write here because i feel like it is a great way for my to communicate how i am feeling, and weather or not anyone ever reads this... it has allowed me express things that i need to say. Of course Jon will listen to me, but other may get tired of listening to "how in love" i am.

But my ultimate reason for writing this is to truly express how thankful I am for the love that I have from Jon. I am going to marry him...He is going to be my husband.

thank you Lord for a strong, Godly man that loves me with all his heart. I am beyond blessed.

feeling heartboken

I graduated college in May of 2009 and here I am now in January of 2011...in four months it will be 2 years since Jon & I have lived in the same state. We have done long Distance for almost two years. It has been the most difficult years I have ever gone through.

When you are really in love with someone it does not matter how far away you are or how long it is until you can see each other again ..... but your heart aches for just even a few hours with the person you love. things are not the same. It difficult to experience amazing things and not have that person around to share them with. I feel like I go though so many things and see, learn and feel new things and I have to pick up the phone just to communicate them with Jon.

I have never dealt with something that was so hard in my life.

I have an amazing family and i am so lucky and grateful to have them in my life. I would not have made it these last two years without them being around.I have made some new friends who have made my day pass faster, and I also have some wonderful friends who do not live very close to me but i know i can pick up the phone and spend time reconnecting with them.

But its not enough... I am longing for the time when i do not have to tell Jon goodbye any more. My heart aches for a hug and kiss everyday from him. I have spent so many nights with tears rolling down my face because that future that we dream about seem so far away.

You could ask Jon at any moment how many times have we talked about why things are not happening, or how i continue to ask him why do i feel like i am just treading water not getting closer to anything. Sometimes I feel like i am standing in the middle of a desert and crying out to God and he has forgotten us. I know that God has placed these rich desires in our hearts to follow him and to use our passions for him, and we have gone as far as we can getting there and there are no doors that are opening.

For goodness sake, I currently hold THREE separate license in different states and I cannot find a full-time Job teaching to save my life. I find myself crying out almost on a daily basis for God to restore all my trust in him and to help me put all my faith and trust in him.. and i still feel like i am being forgotten.

You can talk to God because God listens. Your voice matters in heaven . He takes you very seriously. When you enter His presence, the attendants turn to you to hear your voice. No need to fear that you will be ignored. Even if you stammer or stumble, even if what you have to say impresses no one, it impresses God, and he listens. -

"I call to you in times of trouble, because you will answer me" - Psalm 86:7

This is from a daily devo that I receive. It is the cry in my heart.. I need God to hear me. I need to know that God hears me.

I am His, and I know the plans he has for me are plans for a hope and a future.

Jesus ... I am ready for you to open those doors. I am ready to see what you have for me to do. I know you love myself and Jon and that you have created us for each other. You have blessed out lives with the Love between us and I am so grateful. Please help me to continue to rely on you and feel you hand guide use through this tough time. We need you more than ever!

What does it mean to "Fix your eyes on Jesus?"

What does it mean to "Fix your eyes on Jesus, or To pick up the Cross and follow him?"

I have heard this time after time. and I was never quite sure what it meant. Until, today.
I read some things from Shelia Walsh and this is what she said,

" that every time my will crossed God's will , I dragged my will back in line with his. It means doing things that I know are good and true, whether I feel like it or not. It means setting my face and heart towards heaven just as Jesus did.
I believe that phrase means that we study how Jesus lived, how he loved , and followed hsi example. When we find ourselves in a difficult place, we do what he did: we turn to our father. Faith is not wishful thinking of theatrics. Faith is born in us as we fix our eyes on Jesus and as we recognize the fingerprints of God the Father all over our lives." (Extraodinary Faith)

I am not sure what I thought when I heard the pastor or sunday school teacher tell me to fix my eyes on Jesus or to pick up my cross and follow Him. I guess I always imiagined that it meant that everything I did of thought needed to be "cross referenced" to what I thought God wanted for my life. and I do think that this might be somewhat of what it means.

I want to live like Jesus did. I want to Love like Jesus does. and when I find myself in a difficult place I want to remember to turn to my father.

God has a dream for your life

" I will be your God through all your lifetime, yes, even when your hair is white with age." - Isaiah 46:4

Do you know in the deepest place in your heart that you are loved? I pray that you do. And I also pray that you understand that God never takes his eyes off of you, that you are not alone. I pray that you will grasp hold of the truth that because you are God's daughter/son, anything is possible!

I believe with all of my heart that God has a dream for your life that is far greater than any you could dream for yourself. When God looks at you, he sees a woman/man whom he is passionately loves. That love compelled him to give his Son to redeem you from the nightmare of life spent apart from him. No matter whether any of your smaller dreams are realized on this earth, God has an amazing dream for your life that nothing and no one can touch. God's dream for YOU outweighs every other dream in your life.

And remember, each one of us is given only one life. Your days on earth are not a dress rehearsal so that you can come back and try again. Every life counts. Your life counts. Heaven is watching to see what you will do with the life you have been given.

Sheila Walsh

Sometimes I forget that my dreams for what I want to do with my life are far less than anything I can imagine for what God has planned for my life. I will have conversations with my boyfriend or with my family, friends, whoever- & I talk about what I WANT... not what I think God has planned for me. I forget about the depth of God's love for me. I forget that I am his child who he loves. He sent his Son to die for me- to take my place.

I am praying that God will open my eyes, to see what He has planned for me. I know there is WAY more than I could dream of & I want to see what he has created me for. I want to stop "just making" it through the day. Our days are numbered, some have more than others. I want to live for the Day God has given me. I pray that these are your desires as well. Our work lives, home lives, & love lives should every day reflect the Creator & our drive should be to live in the moment and to live for Christ in every moment!