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I have been visiting SO many new sites & blogs & etsy shops!! I found a shop today that I really like! She makes the cutest little toys for kiddos, and I found a Green & Pink Pinafore that I REALLY want to but when I have a little girl!!

The photo of the dress is too big, but here is a link to the dress!! you need to check her out & al her cute things. I also love the little owls.. they say.. Owl Love you Forever!!!!

http://www.etsy.com/listing/57459187/pink-and-green-owl-pinafore-3-6-months

(thats the link)

Have fun =]

I am trying to figure out how this all works but now I have added my own signature!!! yay =]

ohh baby... I think I wanna marry you

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.

- Elizabeth Barrett Browning

I sometimes do not even know how i managed to get a man like Jon Mullins. I have looked back on my life a lot this last year and a half and thought about all the things i have gone through in this short 24 years of life. Lets go back a few years... I never had a guy in my life until i was 20, it might have been 19. I remember praying so much for a man that God wanted me to have, someone who would complement me in every way. Some girls make a list of all the things they want... and man.. did i make a list. It is so funny how God's since of humor works. He has filled everything I wanted in Jon. Let me share with you some of the things that were on my list...I wanted to find a man that i could be in church with & worship with, I wanted to love going to church with someone and just stand there singing & feel like we are worshiping together. I wanted someone who i felt was like me in aspect that people or our friends would feel comfortable coming to just to talk or to open up about something going on in their life. I wanted a man that could be a strong leader- while I am a strong leader myself i wanted a man that i didn't feel like i had to step back or take the back seat while they lead. (Jon will be the head of our home, but we make choices together & he is so considerate of how i feel.) ... i won't continue with all the things that are on my list... =]

I write here because i feel like it is a great way for my to communicate how i am feeling, and weather or not anyone ever reads this... it has allowed me express things that i need to say. Of course Jon will listen to me, but other may get tired of listening to "how in love" i am.

But my ultimate reason for writing this is to truly express how thankful I am for the love that I have from Jon. I am going to marry him...He is going to be my husband.

thank you Lord for a strong, Godly man that loves me with all his heart. I am beyond blessed.

feeling heartboken

I graduated college in May of 2009 and here I am now in January of 2011...in four months it will be 2 years since Jon & I have lived in the same state. We have done long Distance for almost two years. It has been the most difficult years I have ever gone through.

When you are really in love with someone it does not matter how far away you are or how long it is until you can see each other again ..... but your heart aches for just even a few hours with the person you love. things are not the same. It difficult to experience amazing things and not have that person around to share them with. I feel like I go though so many things and see, learn and feel new things and I have to pick up the phone just to communicate them with Jon.

I have never dealt with something that was so hard in my life.

I have an amazing family and i am so lucky and grateful to have them in my life. I would not have made it these last two years without them being around.I have made some new friends who have made my day pass faster, and I also have some wonderful friends who do not live very close to me but i know i can pick up the phone and spend time reconnecting with them.

But its not enough... I am longing for the time when i do not have to tell Jon goodbye any more. My heart aches for a hug and kiss everyday from him. I have spent so many nights with tears rolling down my face because that future that we dream about seem so far away.

You could ask Jon at any moment how many times have we talked about why things are not happening, or how i continue to ask him why do i feel like i am just treading water not getting closer to anything. Sometimes I feel like i am standing in the middle of a desert and crying out to God and he has forgotten us. I know that God has placed these rich desires in our hearts to follow him and to use our passions for him, and we have gone as far as we can getting there and there are no doors that are opening.

For goodness sake, I currently hold THREE separate license in different states and I cannot find a full-time Job teaching to save my life. I find myself crying out almost on a daily basis for God to restore all my trust in him and to help me put all my faith and trust in him.. and i still feel like i am being forgotten.

You can talk to God because God listens. Your voice matters in heaven . He takes you very seriously. When you enter His presence, the attendants turn to you to hear your voice. No need to fear that you will be ignored. Even if you stammer or stumble, even if what you have to say impresses no one, it impresses God, and he listens. -

"I call to you in times of trouble, because you will answer me" - Psalm 86:7

This is from a daily devo that I receive. It is the cry in my heart.. I need God to hear me. I need to know that God hears me.

I am His, and I know the plans he has for me are plans for a hope and a future.

Jesus ... I am ready for you to open those doors. I am ready to see what you have for me to do. I know you love myself and Jon and that you have created us for each other. You have blessed out lives with the Love between us and I am so grateful. Please help me to continue to rely on you and feel you hand guide use through this tough time. We need you more than ever!